confused

alright, i dont know what to do any more. i have a major problem with my friend and him being a monster, then my real boyfriend just being a jerk. i mean i was absent and everything yesterday, (still kind of weirded out what my friend said to me the other day) but that doesn't give him a right to ignore me.

i mean i had so much sleeping medication i couldn't hear my cell phone buzzing out Dance Gavian Dance at the top of its volume. focus, FI, focus. back to main subject and forgetting about that ass. he did say that to me, i dont know how he knows but one reason i stayed home yesterday because i was afraid of what he would do to me.

but today, he was waiting for me at my locker. i went to it hesitantly and thanked god there were other students around. he didnt do anything rash or anything he just watched me get my stuff, and waited to speak once i shut my locker.

'it hurts for you to be afraid of me. we have been friends since we were born. and nothing has harmed you.'

'what are you talking about?' i demanded turning to face him head on. he smiled sadly and reached out to stroke my cheek.

'its my job, i am your protector....he was going to hurt you. i just never thought you would see the monster i am.' his eyes glissened and i saw the same little boy i grew up with. 'i didnt want to lose you. so i hid what i am....i never thought....not while i was protecting you.'

'hey, jace's crying.' some of his old friends called walking towards us, i glared at them and grabbed jace's hand. before anybody else saw...i pulled jace out of the school.

wow what a thrill, this is the first day i skipped school. and the first time one of the beasts have seen my blog. srry, jace but its true. questions, you know where to find me.

-FI

nothing left

i know this may have taken some time, but my dad came home that night and didn't come out of his office. right now i am in class, we are supposed to be doing some spreadsheet project but that stuff doesn't matter any more.

i don't want to let out my name, you can call me FI or by my user name, if you really know who i am then it may be trouble for you, or if i really know you.

as i said in the first one there are monsters out there. but lately as i have been studying, there are monsters in us too. all dormit and waiting for their moment to strike, it shows our dark side. it shows what we really want to hide.

my best friend, his monster came out the other night. i should have mentioned him first but the shock.....oh, god he's watching me from across the room. i think he somehow knows i am writing about him. he hurt somebody very close to both of us, i walked in on them as he pounced. both their eyes gleamed with animal insanity. i screamed, and both of them looked at me....the animal faded from their eyes as they saw me.

he reached out for me and i just had to run. the next day at lunch he tried to talk to me, he tried to explain, but i was a coward and i refused to listen. i never wanted to be weak, i need to be strong.

another person died this week, i knew that person held a key. he's still watching me, but he bowed his head then looked back at me with pain in his eyes. before he whispered something to me.

'i know you have a key.'

-FI

hi hi a thousand times

It's weird, i can't be normal. never have been for that matter. sorry if none of this is really capitalized but i'm in a hurry. any minute dad could come into his office- where i am banned from- and kick me off. who i am is not important, and somethings i say aren't either....but if you get the main point then you are gold.

there are bad people out there. i know a lot of them, more than there are in my small town. they want something from us. they need something, they need the key. the key is hidden....someplace where they will never find it.

few know where the key is....the knowledge will be born into them.....they can save everything. please if you know the secrets, dont tell a soul. our world is in your hands, the millions of lives....dont sentence them to a death not even you can comprehend.

damn, my dad's coming. i'll write back as soon as possible. please, it is our world at risk. some are the key, they know what to do.

-FI